Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Covered in Layers

LAYERS OF LIFE. EACH DAY OF LIFE WE ADD LAYERS. IT COULD BE LAYERS OF GOOD OR BAD, HAPPY OR SAD OR JUST ANGER AND FRUSTRATION AND SOME LAYERS ARE JUST PUT UP BECAUSE THEY ARE PRETTY AND SOME ARE COVERED UP BECAUSE THEY ARE JUST UGLY...
This is just a photograph I took last summer while walking through an old house that was falling in that once was someone's home.
So I suppose what I am saying is I feel covered in layers of life and I do not know which layer to take off.  Why because I do not know where to begin. You can try to save the best layer but what if you take off the wrong layer and destroy the one you are trying to save.   So I suppose you just try and pray that God is holding your hand to help you make the right choice.
I have not posted in a while and I have not been keeping up with all other there in blogger land but Life has a way of  making us realizing we only have so much time and energy. 

My Mom did get out of the hospital. She is home but somewhere her fight and spirit did not come home with us.  She is still very weak and sick..  I keep looking for that woman I call Mother but I can not find her instead I see this little lady that stares into a empty space and looks very tired..  Sometime I see her but she seems like she is covered in layers and every once in awhile a piece falls off and I get a small glimpse of my Mom.  It is all in God's hands.
So Hospice has come in to help and trust me it is not enough help.. In life there are only certain times that I wish I had been blessed with more income. This is one of those times when you want to take care of the people you love and money is an issue.. Such as Life..Right... 
I suppose I am just rambling on and if you have not been reading my blog you will wonder why is she writing about all this.. It is called the love of family.. My Mother and my friend.
I want to thank everyone of you for your prayers and your kind comments.. 
Thank you so very much.  
 Katelen.

8 comments:

GreenWhisper said...

sending hugs to you and your mam....

xx

Mary said...

oh Katelen, my heart aches for what you are walking through right now. i know how much your Mom means to you...you love her well my friend.

Grace, peace, and love to you and your Mama!

Odd Chick said...

Oh Katelen, this is such a blessed but trying season for you. I wish money would fall down out of the sky and overwhelm you with a drenching rain of generousity so that you could care for you Mom in a way that would both give you comfort and peace. Until such time, I'll pray that you'll have the energy and the courage to keep doing what you're doing. I love your photograph. It leaves me thinking about layers. Keep reaching out- you're not alone.

notmassproduced said...

this is such a poetic piece of writing..you are not rambling on at all. I really feel for you. I'm going through something similar at the moment and it is hard on a physical and emotional level. wishing you lots of strength at this difficult time.

Gallery Juana said...

I have been thinking of you and checking regularly for a new blog post from you. I figured things were getting more complicated than before.

We all know this is a tough time for you and your Mother. And like OddChick said, you're not alone. We're here for you in bloglandia.

No worries about not visiting other blogs. What time you have for yourself is for regaining energy.

I think you've nailed it with your image and words. That is what makes this time so difficult. My heart goes out to you. Sending you a hug filled with Courage and strength.

Juana

Marilyn Rock said...

Positive thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mom. xxoo

LauraX said...

Oh Katelen, I don't think there is ever a "right" choice, just the best choice we can make in the moment. I'm sorry you are suffering so, and that your Mom is, and that you are missing her already...I guess this is God's way of gently pealing away the layers...and revealing the love that never, ever ends.

xo

beth said...

here's a few more hugs for you and continued prayers for your mom....