Sunday, June 7, 2009

The Shoe is on the other Foot--From Daughter to Mother

This is just a simple piece, done on duck canvas, 10x12.. I used a vintage photo and transferred onto the canvas. Simple buttons and thread and of course the shoe..
I really do not know why I have chosen to even post this piece. Simply because In my life the shoe is on the other foot..If you have been following my blog..You know I take care of my mother. She is sick with COPD. They keep telling me the last stages.. I hate those words, because it is so hard to except..I have been caring for my mother for several years and I would not change a thing. Now I watch her struggle for every breath. She is on oxygen and it helps her breathe. She will just lean over to pick up something from her chair and she lifts up struggling for air.. I can not do anything except, pray and tell her she will be OK. I ask her does it scare you and she says no. She is not afraid. When her time comes she will be fine.. She says to me I just worry about you..Can you believe that. I am the one who is afraid.. Afraid of her leaving me and not knowing how to say good bye.
So that is why I say the shoe is on the other foot.
She took care of me when I was a child and loved me. Now I take care of her and love her..
She ask me all those questions I ask her as a child. Like what day is it? or Was I asleep and you left me and I could not find you and I tell her I was right here, you were just dreaming..
It is such a hard thing and then I feel honored that God gave me this chance to care for her.
OK. So yes I am sitting here telling strangers about this and crying..You must thing that strange. I do, yet I have continue on with this post.. Will I regret later that I shared to much. I do not know.
Thank you all so much for visiting my blog and I do apologize if I have ventured off beyond art.
Maybe this is my art work, today. Just simply I am my mothers art and she is mine.

May you always dream in color.


Winterwood said...

aww... (((hugs ))))to you... I looked after my mother till she died (terminakl cancer)and its one of those hard things I would never change in my life even if I could. It was a priveldge and honour to do so.

I love the art, and sending you strength to keep caring for your mum...((hugs))) and beautiful post. Thank youfor sharing such private thoughts and giving the rest of us the courage to maybe do the same for our parents if called to do so.

Winterwood said...

ps I DO dream in colour!

Marilyn Rock said...

I'm glad you posted this piece; I think it's expressive and therapeutic at same time. I've always said art is our therapy and if we can express our feelings on canvas, it's much better than holding it in. Thoughts are with you and your mom.

Stephen Dell'Aria said...

An exceptional piece of artwork. The sincerity you express in the blog is also evident in the art.

Janet said...

As I read this I had tears in my eyes. There is no need to apologize. You're sharing your thoughts and feelings and I appreciate that. I wish I could give you a hug.

readingsully2 said...

Adorable and very meaningful.

Gallery Juana - ギャラリー ワナ said...

This art piece communicates your feelings and situation well. No need to apologize for how you feel or what you say on your blog.

Sending you strength and understanding.