Thursday, August 27, 2009

Never Alone

12x15 Acrylic on Wood...So this may be a self portrait in a Strange Art Way...LOL..I suppose it seems I never have time to enjoy just Me Time..I seem to always have things that are in the back of my head. So to Speak. They are always there even if I am not aware of it.. I did this in my sketch book awhile back and I picked it up and just went with it, not knowing what it meant until I started painting in a unrealistic way..Not going with the normal color of skin and not the normal face. I realized I carry things and people with me, even when I am by myself..
I am always turning around, listening to make sure My Mom is not calling out to me for something. Or thinking is there something I need to do or forgot to do. I turn around and no one is there..
So yes ,I have overload and I can not relax. I am not complaining about caring for my Mom,
It is just so hard at times. I love her so much and I would not change what I am doing..
I know what I am doing is what I am suppose to be doing and I am not questioning it at all.
I just ask for a little quiet mind at times. Well we see that is not going to happen when I paint like this.. HA HA

May you always dream in color,


Winterwood said...

its good that you still have enough time for yourself for your wonderful art!

Mary said...

Sweet Katelen, I do not hear complaining about caring for your Mom, and I know how hard it is for you to find quiet, to be off by yourself. I would encourage you to make that time you so need and deserve. And dear one, you are never totally alone!!


Leslie Avon Miller said...

What a great portrait. Eyes in the back of the head kind of thing.

Manon Doyle said...

I love the portrait Katelen!
You have so much on your plate. It's not easy being a caregiver to a parent. You could easily lose yourself. Keep finding yourself through your art. It will make the hard days a little easier.

Patti said...

I love it! I know it's having other priorities - I wasn't in the studio all summer long and still can't seem to get back - yet!
Take care and be good to yourself.

pinkglitterfae said...

I know that feeling too well. I use lists, I write everything I think of on them, that way I don't have to have so much clutter in my head. The stuff doesn't miraculously get done by itself but at least you are not wasting mental energy trying not to forget it.
Sounds like you need to sit with a cup of coffee or tea, somewhere cozy, maybe on a porch surrounded by plants, and do nothing. Just enjoy your warm drink, and let thoughts come and go. It's a battery recharger for me. Do try it, sounds like there is too much going on in your life, a 15 minute break to do nothing may help you.

Odd Chick said...

I'm so glad you made time for yourself to paint and then shared it with us along with your feelings about care-giving. I love your artsy self-portrait and the shadow face behind it.. we all have a shadow self.

ArtPropelled said...

Hi Katelen, the email address in your profile hasn't been working because I'v recived mail failure messages when using it. Basically I just wanted to say that your attitude is fantastic. It's so much harder when a caregiver can't take time out completely. Wishing you a quiet mind :-)

Patti said...

Fantastic Katlene
Congratulations! Great job!

Lyrically speaking said...

love your work and blog, so inspiring